Sunday, August 19, 2007

Love Bug Or Just An Annoying Insect?

I am a victim of the "love bug". I am pleased to report that I am a willing sufferer of this malody currently - and would never want to get rid of my current assailant. Unfortunately, when I have been bitten before - raging "side effects" always seemed to follow. Which led me to wonder something very basic - how can you tell when somebody you love will turn out to be a utter asshole? When they become said asshole, can you write that relationship off as just love - not LOVE?

Unless you have been a victim of a horrendous marriage like I have I don't think one can understand quite accurately the plight this puts you in. You beloved (who you have sworn to love honor and trust) uses you as a punching bag, chokes you into unconsiousness, and otherwise makes your life a living hell. Then he cheats on you (with your best friend and number one sympathizer none the less), and leaves you pregnant and alone. So, I can understand how you can fall OUT of love with a person like that. However, I still can't figure out how men like this keep finding women to fall in love with them. My ex abuser/husband is happily married, and by all accounts a loving husband (like I believe that for a second).

The "love of my life" as I like to call him and I are living a happy existence "shacking up" and loving it. My daughter and him get along great, and I have never been happier in my life. Even so, I can't help but wonder - what makes certain men (present company DEFINATELY not included) abusers and what makes others (present company DEFINATELY included) wonderful, loving individuals?

Maybe it is too much riboflavin.

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