I am a victim of the "love bug". I am pleased to report that I am a willing sufferer of this malody currently - and would never want to get rid of my current assailant. Unfortunately, when I have been bitten before - raging "side effects" always seemed to follow. Which led me to wonder something very basic - how can you tell when somebody you love will turn out to be a utter asshole? When they become said asshole, can you write that relationship off as just love - not LOVE?
Unless you have been a victim of a horrendous marriage like I have I don't think one can understand quite accurately the plight this puts you in. You beloved (who you have sworn to love honor and trust) uses you as a punching bag, chokes you into unconsiousness, and otherwise makes your life a living hell. Then he cheats on you (with your best friend and number one sympathizer none the less), and leaves you pregnant and alone. So, I can understand how you can fall OUT of love with a person like that. However, I still can't figure out how men like this keep finding women to fall in love with them. My ex abuser/husband is happily married, and by all accounts a loving husband (like I believe that for a second).
The "love of my life" as I like to call him and I are living a happy existence "shacking up" and loving it. My daughter and him get along great, and I have never been happier in my life. Even so, I can't help but wonder - what makes certain men (present company DEFINATELY not included) abusers and what makes others (present company DEFINATELY included) wonderful, loving individuals?
Maybe it is too much riboflavin.
Sunday, August 19, 2007
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